To the average outlooker on life, my year will probably seem as quite a crappy year.
I've dealt with many challenges from health, career, family and personal problems but looking back I have emerged a stronger, wiser and thankful person.
This year finally gave me the courage to cut the chord from all the negative influences in my life and focus on what was more important for me.
It made me distinguish right from wrong or better yet, what was not right for me.
This was a year of change, a year where I started my getting to know Martina journey, a year where all that mattered was seeking the good in my life.
Another thing which I learnt is to let go of anger. Anger is such a wasted energy, a source of energy which can be transformed into something good instead. I could easily look back at this year with an anger filled resentment but I choose to let go, to cut the chord of negativity and move on.
Amongst all the bad in my life, ending up in hospital twice over the course of a few months, experiencing heart ache of scattered dreams and losing my beloved cat Timmy and walking down a path which seemed like theres no light at the end of it, I found the strength to overcome the biggest battles of my life.
As you all know, or if you follow my blog, you would know.. my weight has been something which weighed me down and kept me back from reaching the stars in the past.
This year, the year of change, saw me taking one of probably the best decisions of my life and change that. I am now finally at the place I want to be, looking healthier and looking the best I have ever done. My confidence is up and thanks to my weight loss or the courage and motivation it gave me of knowing that if I set my mind to something, it can be achieved.. it helped me with overcoming certain fears I had and pushed me through finding the strength to release myself from negative things in my life.
Another thing which I am grateful this year is all my friends and realising who my true friends are, the ones who reading this will know exactly what I am referring to, although throughout my little composition here I am being very cryptic. Their support and belief have made me the person I am today. I don't need to mention you one by one but I think you all know who you are and I love you for that.
My better half and possibly my greatest supporter is probably the best thing that has happened to me this year. Although we will be hitting the three year mark in a few months, this year has really shown me what it means to be a team, to have someone who although the other person takes big risks, he stands by her and supports her decisions, although hesitant at first. A true companion and a true supporter, thank you for bearing with me xxx
As Shay Carl (yes I do follow the shaytards) once shared; We are constantly surrounded with negative things, negative things that people say, do but happiness is a choice, you can choose to get sucked in the vortex of negativity or choose to be happy and this is the last thought of 2013 I would like to share with you, Happy New Year to all and thank you for following my craziness for all this time.
Lets all raise our glasses to 2013.... heres to the most challenging year I have ever faced.. heres to the year of change!